oblivion.

laying everything out on the table here.

am i okay? well hell i don’t know. i say i am but am i really? i mean yeah it bums me out, it was really random and i’m still not even sure exactly what it was that happened. i mean, it was only like three weeks so theres not much to be super depressed about or anything i guess and i’m not. and actually i’m cool with being best friends; that’s how i thought it was going to be before you implanted these ideas in my mind that a relationship would be a good idea..i wasn’t even thinking about a relationship but it happened. 

and anyways, i’m in no position to say who you can and can’t be friends with but i just don’t understand. you say i broke you from an “evil spell” that’s been tormenting you, yet you wanna run back to it i guess that’s your choice. i just hope friends is all you wanna be with her because otherwise i’ll feel like i’ve been played a fool. 

you can laugh at me, all you want because our relationship didn’t last long but i’m hopefully trading it for a friendship that will last a lifetime. 

it is what it is and i’ll get over it, you’re a great person and hopefully this is what’s best. i got my head on straight and i’ll bounce right back with a sparkle in my eye.

this is all i gotta say.

+one tree hill puts my thoughts into words :D

Life is to short to wake up in the morning with regrets. So, love the people who treat you right and forget about the ones who dont. And believe that everything happens for a reason…. If you get a chance, take it. If it changes your life, let it. Nobody said that it would be easy… they just promised it would be worth it. ‎”Take a look at yourself in a mirror. Who do you see looking back? Is it the person you wanna be? Or is there someone else you were meant to be? Is someone telling you you can’t? Or you won’t? Because you can.
Believe that love is out there. Sometimes happiness doesn’t come from money or fame or power. Sometimes happiness comes from …good friends and family and from the quiet nobility of leading a good life.
So take a look in that mirror and remind yourself to be happy. Because you deserve to be. Believe that. And believe that dreams come true every day. Because they do.” ♥ Every once in a while people step up, they rise above themselves. Sometimes they surprise you, and sometimes they fall short. Life is funny sometimes, it can push pretty hard, but if you look close enough you find hope in the words of children, in the bars of a song and in the eyes of someone you love. And if you’re lucky, and if you’re the luckiest person on this entire planet, the person you love decides to love you back. happiness will find me (: there’s no rush.

yes, we broke up. and yes, we’re still bestfriends and we will be.

because pinkies don’t break.

so what do you do when the person you would run to is the one that’s hurting you?

it’s ALWAYS me. whywhywhy?

don’t ask me either. i’m venting and i don’t want to talk about it till i figure it out fully myself.

29972.) I lie to you, because I don’t want to seem pathetic or needy. But how we are now hurts me more than you’ll ever know.

okay, i’m done for the night i seriously have to study.

i’m irritated and i don’t want to do anything right now but i fricken have to. ugh.

get me outta here.

I’ll tell you a secret. Something they don’t teach you in your temple. The Gods envy us. They envy us because we’re mortal, because any moment might be our last. Everything is more beautiful because we’re doomed. You will never be lovelier than you are now. We will never be here again.

—troy